Inspiration

Im inspired to write today. Its been a while and Im ready to release!

Reading my friend Justin's Facebook status just now got me thinking... he stated;

Thought through all of this growth I'd find but lost myself again - only to realize that's the point. We're never the same thing twice...

and that got me thinking.

We are like a rose bush. We bud and mature thru the growth process, we bloom into a new beautiful being, and as we do so, as we learn and grow part of us dies. It leaves us and we hope its only the negative and sometimes its goodness too but then we regenerate. A rebirth. We become anew once again. And the thorns on the stems are the trials and tribulations of our life. Pain, suffering, sadness and depression, and yet, the stem between the thorns is smooth and vibrant! When a rose is in full bloom, its like us at our peak at that time in our life. Not at the peak of our life as I believe, we go thru phases and when we reach that peak, everything is great. Lesson learned. Then the road continues and we continue to travel this path called life. Until we bloom again.

I was also thinking how tomorrow is never promised. I read somewhere a long time ago; "why do we hold on to things and save them for a special occasion or for another reason we deem worthy?"

Who's to say that special day will ever come. Whos to say tomorrow will ever come? Realize, Every Day is WORTHY!! I say, dont save anything, use your fine China for dinner every night! Wear that dress just because you want to feel good! Wear your pearls, try something new, pick up a new hobbie, volunteer, write a book, conquer a fear!

Live your life, no one else can do it for you!

Surround yourself with positive. Positive people, vibes, environment. Keeping negativity in your life will only keep you down, hold you back and define you. Remove the negative, and positivity can only surround you. Ofcourse no one can completely remove negativity and I think what remains is necessary to remind you, to push you, to motivate you.

So, I think I want to blog...

because I have so much to say and I have alot going through my head ... why not? right?
hmmm, well I guess this will be my test as I have a poetry blog, a business blog and a soon to come Instructional food prep blog.
So, who am I. I am Jasara. 30 years old, mother of three, Radiology scheduler, amature baker who is aspiring to become a Master Cake Decorator.... *sigh*... married to a failing marriage, daughter, sister and aunt. Amongst other things.
Im just finding self recently.. the process started 4 yrs ago... I laugh thinking about that. Man four years is a long time but I guess when you are already in a life created, its a small fraction of time. Anyway, 4 years ago I knew something had to change and if it didnt, mysery would follow me all the days of my life. I was in a bad situation with my husband, family life was only picture perfect to the outside world. No one knew what life was like nor had been like for the past 9 years. Not that details are necessary now but lets just say, it was time for change and change in self was where it had to start. it was a slow process in the beginning. Doubting, wondering, stressing, but I only grew stronger thru each month, each year and now I feel I am finally in control of my life. For once. So 2010, you are mine! Documenting my Journey into self, into a new career, into a new me! Im excited for me! Arent you? :)