Thursday, April 29, 2010


Today ended up being a day of randomness for me. Work started quite busy since we were short staffed, but before lunch it went to a dead crawl... i have resorted to tweeting and FB status updating random posts!

I've also cut my finger pretty deep somehow and have no clue how I did it! but it hurts like heck!!!

!! OUCH!!

I keep saying , tonight im going to work out
tonight im going to work out
TONIGHT im GOING to work out!
seriously..  I am

Im also going to read my book that i have
been neglecting for weeks.
not totally but kind of.

I need to get to Eat Pray Love before
the movie comes out!

Im in a rather upbeat mood since the sun has returned
and is going to stay at least
until SUNday :)
woop woop!

Have a lovely one!

x's and o's

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

A holiday for I...

and for all the mamas around! Mothers day is rolling around and tho I usually dont do any big celebrations as I prefer the more simpler things in life like , home made cards and gifts, breakfast in bed cooked by my oldest, kisses and cuddles with my boys, a sunshine day to recieve all the warmth and love...

I think this Mothers day, I wana be a lil more adventureous! A weekend full of fun and exciting and new things!

So here is my list of Mothers day wants :

1. An early morning (possible sunrise) hike in the Coyote Hills.

2. Then ride up to San Francisco a.k.a. The City a.k.a Frisco to Cafe Gratitude
and enjoy a Yo Soy Bonita and indulge in a I AM ETERNALLY SWEET.
click here for menu descriptions!

3.Take a ride down Highway 1 and enjoy the coastal scenery ...

on my way to Monterey to the aquarium =)

Spend the Day with the fishies and eating at a restaruant on Canneryrow.

4. Watch the sunset on the Beach

before driving home to relax after a full day!

Now this is just my Mothers Day Wish List of to do's, but Im determined to
make it happen and enjoy it to the fullest!

X's and O's

It always happens in three's

One of my fellow bloggers Meghan posted this activity about "Threes" (along with a couple other blogs I follow!) and I thought I'd tag along!

Three names I go by:
- Jasara

Three Jobs I've had:
- Crisis Pregnancy Counselor
- Medical Assistant
-Radiology Scheduler

Three Places I've lived:
-San Francisco, CA
-Antelope, CA
-Union City, CA

Three Favorite Drinks:
- Monster energy drink
-Lemon or Lime sparkling water or Perrier

Three TV shows I watch:
-Greys Anatomy

Three Places I've been to recenty:
-South Lake Tahoe
-Las Vegas

Three places I'd like to visit:
-Europe (Meghan is sooo lucky!!)

Three favourite old TV shows:
-Who's the boss
-Punky Brewester
-Silver spoons

Three Favourite dishes:
-anything Italian
-Southern/Creole dishes
-Swedish Pancakes

Three make-up products I cannot live without:
- Mascara
-Lip gloss

Three things I"m looking foward to:
-my business getting off the ground
-a visit to NY again
-summer and my birthday

Three superpowers I wish I had:
-Ability to fly
-freeze time
-be invisible

Three Places I love to Shop:
-Forever 21
-Ny and Co.

Three pets I've had and their names:
- Cat - cuddles, rocket and cane
-Dog - Jackson
-Fish - dont remember cos i hate them as pets! lol

Three bands I'd want to see on a festival line-up:
- Jay-Z
-Alicia Keys

Three favrouite comfort foods:
-chips and dip
-In and Out
-home made roast and potatoes

Three songs currently on rotation:
- Nothin on you by B.o.B feat Bruno Mars
-Forever Young - Jay-Z
-Daddy's home - Usher

Three People I'm Tagging:

Tuesday, April 27, 2010



So heres all views of the cake. with close ups of a few of the characters.
The tweedles didnt make the closeup as I said before, i wasnt thrilled with my work.
But all that matters was the Niece LOVED it :)

Me, the cake and Anissa in Wonderland :)

Blog break

I basically hibernated from the world for 3 days and took a breather for one. I worked on my nieces cake for 3 days basically. Disappointingly failed Friday. I took off because I thought my youngest had pink eye... only to pay $20 to be told he has allergies. Then I ran around to the store, picking up kids, finally getting home and spent hours trying to make an alice doll out of fondant only for it to fail tragically. Motivation and excitement for the cake. Gone.

I didn’t start the cake until 7pm Saturday night, after sleeping in, taking my sweet time getting ready, looking at a possible rental that totally sucked! I hate false advertisement! going to the store (i seem to live in grocery stores and Michaels) then getting home and chillin' before attacking the cakes.
Well, I shoulda known, BIG mistake. I didn’t start baking .. yes BAKING 8 layers of cake until 7 that evening. I decided at 430am I should prob get a lil rest, get up at 8 and knock the cake out before 2 only to wake at 930 and realize the party started at 1. mad rush. mad hatter. lol it was maddening!

Sooooooo i totally sucked and cut corners on the cake, didn’t finish until 4. luckily people always seem to fashionably show up late for a birthday so technically i was an hour and a half late :)
but they loved it, niece loved it. i thought know it could have been better. But alas, i'm my own worst critic.

Monday, just another work day but i was so ... um.. relieved.. free.. light... because for once in a long time, i didn’t have to go home and bake, decorate, plan, sketch, basically work! I didn’t know what to do with self! lol
so i took the day and evening to just do nothing. I didn’t even cook dinner! well, fried up some lumpia ( I love Filipino food!!) and showered, laid out and did ... NOTHING!

but i missed my blog! **blog kisses** muah! missed it so! Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!

I'll be posting cake pics in my next post (making up for not posting! :D )

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Celebrate our planet today!

Happy Earth day everyone! Do your part in showing how you love and appreciate this great earth we have!

  • Recycle
  • plant a seed
  • unplug appliances not in use
  • change your light bulbs to energy efficient ones
  • attend the Climate Rally if your in DC
  • sign the Earth Day 2010 Climate Declaration
  • use re-usable bags when shopping
  • use a reusable water bottle
  • buy recycled products
  • use environmentally friendly cleaning products
  • reduce water use

there are a ton of things one can to do honor and help preserve our earth!

And tonight begins the making of Alice in Wonderland !!!

Im so eggg-CY-teD! ( Mike Myers as Austin Powers voice)
X's and O's

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

3 hours

...thats how much sleep I had last night. Im a zombie today. My eyes are even blurry from the lack of sleep.
Oh the life of an aspiring :)

But the cake was a hit! They absolutely loved it. Thus my reward for my deprivation. And to try and stay awake and obtain energy, i willingly partook in their potluck. I don't do potlucks unless there's store bought food. Sorry no offense to others home cooking but ive come across one too many dishes with hair or plastic or other "unknown" objects in them on top of visiting a coworkers house to find it quite ... dirty  nasty inside and they have no qualms about having company over in that state. Or maybe I'm just a clean freak and even though I bake out of my house, abide by health code conduct and with the help of my medical background, universal precautions! lol I always have my hair back, gloves on and am constantly wiping down and disinfecting my work surfaces. ok... im totally off track with this... blame it on my altered mental status.
but i ate 3 half sammiches and then our dept ordered pizza which i only ate the toppings off of. for me this is more than i normally eat. That is another story. Lets just call it "professional dieter" and leave it at that for now!

So back to the cake...  I finally finished at 3am Wednesday morning. Up at 6 for work. Headache and completely annoyed by everyone yet excited by the cake. I bet I could cry on cue today! lol

Tonight, even tho I have to start on another cake.. I think I will just take a break and rest up. Cant do good work with an exhausted body!

Enjoy the Pics!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Right this moment...

Im exhausted. Drained. Food would help but work has been crazy busy and I havent found the time to stop and eat. My 30 min lunch I napped. Power naps are good. It helped but 90 more minutes would have been awesome. :)

I got a lot done today. A lot of stuff I'd rather not address. Tax papers to mail out that the stupid Turbo-Tax wouldnt let me file. Printed out rental apps for the two properities Im looking to move into. Met my quota for work before noon thanks to a difficult anesthesia case I had scheduled that the OR messed up. Blogged a bit with a morning post.

Now... I can attack the things to do this evening... like how I have to redo this baby bath cake because I found that what I have is too small :( not thrilled to realize that at 1am two nights before its due. Start on my Alice in Wonderland pieces, as I'm already 5 days late in starting them. But I turned down the Thomas the Train cake so I can dedicate my Wednesday - Saturday on this cake. Hopefully I'll figure out a design I like since I'm not thrilled about the topsy turvy any more :/

Just took a break... YUM Fruit Salad!!! and pretzels which ima save
half of my bag to go with my new found love...

Now that I have some energy... time to rock and roll
or Shake and Bake Ricky Bobby!

X's & O's

so what.. I know its Tuesday

Monday Minute

Yeah, I know but I didnt find this link til today and I'm quite annoyed here at work so to get my mind off the crappy day of work, I'm entertaining myself with this :)

Oh and Im following his blog too.. good read.. follow suit.

Without further ado.... oh and special thanks to Tami aka RN Mama (whos blog 29 and holding... I follow and highly recommend cos she's the real deal!)who also follows Ian and his blog The Daily Dose of Reality

1 - Ever take a shit in the woods?

um im sure i did.... every year me and my family went camping in Yosemite or Sequoia National, ofcourse, we had a lovely port-o-potty...

2 - If you won $1,000, what's the first thing you would do with it besides give me a cut?

of all the things I could would and should do, i'd split it with my mom's since she is loosing her job in 40 days. and use the rest to pay off my bills.

3 - What's your favorite phrase?

It is what it is.

4 - Fill in the blank - the world would be a better place if ______ left the planet.


5 - How do you take your coffee or tea?

Just like me... Sweet and about my color!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Spring has Sprung!

This weekend was a hectic but lovely weekend! I got my cake done very late friday and delivered it 45 min away at midnight in the heart of San Francisco ( i miss my city sometimes even tho im not that far, I grew up in Frisco!)

I had my niece stay the night as well and she had a blast with Dru. My lil nephew came by too but slept the entire time he was there! My niece crashed too tho!

Anissa my niece

her brother Jaden :)
sleeping beauties!

Made it to church Sunday which was nice and refreshing. Cooked a big breakfast (wish I took pics but the boys devoured it before I could grab my phone!) pancakes, grits, bacon, eggs and swedish pancakes (my fav! Grandmas recipe!) then grilled some ribs and started the baby cake.

(my pool pics arent downloading :( ill try to post them later!)

Just a few pics from the weekend! Today another manic monday... but what else are mondays?!?!

OH and i got my wi-fi! finally!!!!!! no excuse now to not blog at home , its just such a busy week with all the cakes I have due!!!

X's and O's

Friday, April 16, 2010

You crossed my mind today...

I wish Heaven had a phone so I could hear your voice again.Thought of you today, but that is nothing new. Thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part. God has you in his arms. I have you in my heart.

On December 15th 2005, I lost a best friend.
She crossed my mind today.
Wendy Lema.
She was all of maybe 5 feet tall
a full blooded Irish gal with
RED hair and freckles
and a ton of spunk!

We had met in an odd way...
back in 1997 when I lived with my then
new boyfriend in Modesto
He had gone out with his work buddy, Doug.
Well that night, he didnt come home.
At about 3am, I got a call.
The woman on the other line asked for me
and I confirmed that she was speaking with her...
She said,
"You dont know me, but Im Doug's girlfriend and I have your man here passed out on my couch"
"I didnt want you to worry so I got your number out of his phone"
I thanked her and remained upset at him for getting that drunk!

We would always joke about that night!

We became close and a couple years later both got pregnant; me with my 2nd
her with her first. We were 3 1/2 months apart.
I had my son, she had her daughter.

Through the years, we would visit and keep in touch as we moved
a couple of hours away. Everytime we moved, Wendy and Doug were
there to help, no questions asked.
We would joke, drink, eat, laugh, watch the kids play,
go for a walk, hit up the store..

Wendy was a diabetic. She controlled it well.
She did slip into a coma once thru the years I knew her..
but was always a fighter.

The last time I saw Wendy was at my wedding in June of 2005.
We hadent spoke in a few months so I was unaware that
she had lost her job and her and Doug decided to
end their relationship.
But for me, she came with Doug and Kalani
as a family to celebrate with us.
(Kalani in the red dress dancing at the reception)

I got the call that morning of the 16th...
I had missed Dougs call the day before...
I wish I handnt. Not that it would have mattered.
Just been another day of greiving.

Apparently Wendy got sick with a fever and flu like symptoms.
Supposidly was having trouble getting her diabetic meds
since she lost her job and insurance.
She went to a free clinic to get medical care...
but because she had developed a rash
they turned her away.
Said to come back once the rash cleared up.
Wendy Lema died that night.
Her daughter, Kalani, found her on the couch.

Rest in Peace Wendy Angel

(I dont have pics to post because Im on my work computer but i'll post a pic of Wendy this weekend)

Kalani 10 yrs old

Kalani is getting so big, and even though I know she has a big family
now, she still misses her mama but knows mama's
her guardian angel.

We miss you too Wendy!
Until we meet beyond the gates.....

X's and O's

Thursday, April 15, 2010


Hmph! Basically describes the day I've had.
I just want to forget today ever existed.
Not much in the blogging mood so
I'll just share some pics from
the drum cake im making
Lemon Chiffon.

Lemon Chiffon Cake batter
with fresh lemon zest and lemon juice

I zested 2 whole lemons for extra lemony goodness

two of the three layers done
(scraped off the top layer  to help eliminate crumbs since it just peeled right off!)

Yum! I should have made a Lemonchello Icing!

put a thin lemon-sugar glaze on each layer
to enhance the lemon-sweetness and
to keep them moist before icing
with a lemon infused buttercream.


and this pic because its quite fitting for my day today...

Wishing my blogettes a better today than I...

X's & O's

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


Something we must do...
When we are down, worn out, frustrated, depressed, over worked
and just plain tired...
one should rejuvinate.
In some way or another.

Is mental.
After feeling not so great about
where I want to be
and where Im going
and why Im not there...

I woke with the intentions of making today
a GREAT day :)

And thus it has been.

Along with my bloggettes supporting me
and a few online and at home friends
I am out of my slump.


I confirmed the drum cake. I have 2 days to complete it!
Lemon cake...
Debating on the filling/frosting...
any suggestions?
I thought about the tripple lemon
cream cheese lemon
I'll be baking it tonight.
Let you know what I decided!

Gotta Go Gotta Go!!
 X's and O's


Here are the pics from last weekend...

Lion of Zion Cake
(excuse my car, i was in the middle of delivering when i forgot i didnt take a pic!)

One of the Lions on the cake (fondant)

Modeling Chocolate Lion

My hand painted Lion and flag based off the invite

My Rainy Morning Sunday

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Fast Forward

is my life the past two days. I have been going non stop with work, work and cake planning. I have come accross a few small businesses online or FB and have gotten a few more ideas on how to get my business going. I also feel like I'm going no where because I cant seem to find the time to really dedicate myself to either go to school or look into what it will take to make a small business run.

I do want this... right?

I am second guessing self alot as I fail more at these cakes... wishing I could go to school or learn some way.
Enhance my skills and knowledge. Oh and also have the funds to do this all... another back fall in my plan.

I did get alot accomplished today even though my boss was barking down my neck (having a visual of my boss's body with a pit pull head and long blonde hair barking words! hehe! )

(it says "when we'll wee tell this S.O.B. (son of boss) he is getting to big for his britches!")

Amusement to get me through the last 10 minutes of the work day!

Dreading the taxes im going to have to do tonight... dont mind procrastinating on these babies! :)

I've decided to take on another cake this month.. actually this week. Crazy? yup, I know.

I finally downloaded the pics from my weekend, rather random but Ill post em in a separate post. Complete the total randomness of it all!

Well my lovely readers...until we blog again!

X's & O's

Monday, April 12, 2010

lovely blog...

How I've missed you!
I took Friday off to finish the Lion cake
only for it to not work out after 6 hrs of attempting
I resorted to plan B.
They loved it.
me... eh.
the perfectionist in me
wanted that RKT sculpture
(rice krispy treat)
to work out...
for ONCE!

Saturday, i woke to finish the cake that I had lost
my motivation on completing the day before.
Delivered to happy customers.
Came home and slept for 2 hours.
L-A-Z-Y bug hit me.

I did manage to go out which I totally regret.
Seeing as how i hardly get out anymore
and have basically stopped drinking
even wine
(for some who know me I can hear you *gapsing* right now!)
I wasnt really in the mood for it and
I shoulda just listened to my inner self.
Got to the club (which I thouht was a lounge because I dont care for the clubs much)
only to wait in the freezing pre rain storm night for an hour...
get in and pay 10 bucks a drink
trying to play it safe i drank only 2
and still....
left completely intoxicated
getting worse by the minute second
til I got home and passed out.

and that brings me to sunday
I slept til 9 but had a heacache
so I continued to sleep til noon.
got up and went to I-Hop
(Kids loved me for that)
came home and plopped on the couch
and my niece came over.
I slept, on and off..
finally got up to eat to give me energy

and yesssss... what else but
Rice Krispy Treats!


Bad energy! BAD BAD energy!
ofcourse after my sugar high, me my niece and my youngest Dru
sat and watched Shrek2/3 and Astro Boy.

til I had to drop her home...

then, ate Chinese.

Swore as I fell asleep,
I would make up for this lazy weekend.

Today was better, at work with a salad! lol

Oh well, we all deserve a bummy weekend!

X's and O's

(so I was going to post pics but ill have to update later its taking forever to send from my phone :/  )

Thursday, April 8, 2010

A new day...

Woke up feeling good.
Sun was out, I got a good nights rest and
it was a new day!
Work went by smoothly
even though I got a headache...
but my co-worker saved me
with Advil.
I laughed today.
Laughter is great for the soul
We should all laugh once
a day :D
Ready to get home
enjoy some evening sun
and sculpt this lion out
Have a lovely evening/night Everyone!
X's and O's

Wednesday, April 7, 2010


I have been through a lot the past year and some odd months and have pretty much cut off or pushed away all of my friends, or so called friends.
It was an ugly situation that brought out everyones true colors. Family, friends , in myself and my spouse. I realized who my friends were and who my enemies were. I was hurt, angry and basically shut off my world to everyone.
I built a wall and made sure no one could get in. I was on the defensive, everyone was against me. Though the story is past and does not need to be relived, it has affected who I am today with these people.
Today it came out with a co-worker who was my best friend. Funny thing was even though I explained why I am this way and what caused it, her response was dry and unconcerning. So I've realized, my choices were correct. I can be friendly, friends, but I know who my true friends are.
That I'm thankful for.
I am also saddened because I've gone from having a great social life, great friends that I respected and loved, that I could vent to and cry to, share secrets and heart aches, have girls night out and birthday celebrations... to having none of that.
No going out, no phone calls, no invites, no one.
Yes, I partly blame self, I didn't have to shun everyone out but when the bad apples were also close and best friends with the good apples, I couldn't trust the good ones. And not to say that they were good because they too had their share of putting me down, gossiping and shit talking to others and each other about me and my situation. It just wasn't as bad as the ones who did it to affect my daily living...
I didn't think I'd ever touch on this subject again, as it brings me heartache and sadness all over again.. but Its done and I am done with it.
I truly appreciate the very few true friends I have, in my daily life and online!
I'd rather have a few great, true, real friends that a lot of fake ones!

X's and O's

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

I think I can, I think I can...

Im trying to bring back positive vibes!

Today was a good day, I started the day clear minded.

Carpool free, for now. Ready for the day and greeted by rays of SUNSHINE!

I tackled a few things on my list today;
*searched for jobs in Chicago on Craigslist (didn't get to hit up yahoo hot jobs or monster yet)
*priced flights n rooms in NY so if I decided to check out the schools I can have and idea of the $
*looked up payment plans and extensions on the IRS website (oh. joy.)
*Blogged! yesss! before 4:45 too! :)

So I feel productive. Plus I've put in more work at the J.O.B. only because I know it will get out of hand this month now that duties are rotated... (that's as kindly and as general as I can put it)
Still have to work on this cake sketch.
Once I'm done with this, I'll focus my attention on that! (wooohooo another tackled to-do!)
I still have to face the debate on school and what not. I need time to research options and look into donating my time in exchange for experience. (time? what time?!)

I will feel so much better once I have a plan or a path that I've chosen...

I think I need to take a break from cakes too, in order to focus on getting things in place, traveling to visit and just having a clear head... I'm thinking May.


I think the sun had a lot to do with my day lol!