Live your best life.

For a while now, I have been on a  mission. Actually, its been 4 years since this journey started. Four years ago, I didn't know what happiness was, I just knew I wanted it. That may not make sense to most. Don't get me wrong, I have experienced happiness. Different events in my life, that have held true happiness in my heart, but after 10 years, I realized, my whole life, I had been living for everyone else. Not self. Not that living for others is wrong because, I would give up all for my children. More so for family, friends, work... always feeling like I had to live up to be who they  thought I was or wanted me to be.

Funny, because over the past 4years, just when I think I know what happiness is to me, I learn its more than I know. I've now come to realize, happiness is a consistent thing one has to build on. Every few months through this journey, I find something new, experience something, read something that gives me that "Ah Ha" this is  even better than what I knew before!

I must admit, the PTSD class I took last year was my big "360" in my life. I was finally able to feel like, for once, I had control of my life. The chains were broken and I have not gone back since. Finding self, Loving self, prioritizing the most important things in my life and learning to say NO. Choosing who my real friends are, who are just acquaintances, balancing work and home, learning to run a business. PATIENCE! Even more than I have as a mother!

Another aspect, BALANCE. There is nothing like mentally cleaning house. Taking time for self, managing work, kids, home, friends, family. I found that I don't have to be everywhere doing everything! Although  the perfectionist side of me wants to, I learn to let go, say no, reschedule and make time for things I put off. Balance means choices. I have the choice to not answer my cell or even pick it up to check text messages. I  have the  choice to make a kid friendly quick dinner and not slave over the stove for 3 hrs after a long work day. I have the choice to come home and take an hour nap because I'm exhausted instead of pushing thru the evening. These things help create balance for me. I can finally say... "It's OK" .

Reducing stress, balance, patience, saying no to others more and yes to me, loving self, seeking God, surrounding myself with good people, working at achieving my dream, having inner peace and letting go of the past and the resentment... these things are enabling me to experience new levels of happiness. New experiences of joy rising. Living my best life.

Initially started the blog thinking I would document my journey through becoming a baker, pastry artist, cake designer... and now, I have no direction with it. Life sometimes has its own plans, its us that get in the way of the master plan of our life, tyring to override it and make our own way. Sometimes, Its best to stop trying to force life, and just live life.

X's and O's

Jasara

Coffee... where for art thou Coffee?

I woke up today totally missing Coffee! Didn't help that the smell from the pot brewing in the kitchen lingered into my bedroom!

Not that I'm Catholic but I gave up Coffee for Lent.
I am spiritual and thought that giving up an indulgent

and using it as a time for prayer or meditation when in times of

craving was a good thing.

And so tomorrow marks day 21, 3 weeks from Ash Wednesday.

I was o.k. until today.

3 weeks, 1 day to go...

*lol*

is that bad that im counting?!

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On another note, I had a talk with a friend last night

who's given me some good advice

about school and the move and all

I'm glad we spoke.

He's a great guy with allot of wisdom.

I'm at peace right now, letting what ever happen

with this move, my goals and dreams

f a l l

into place.

I'm more stressed about this transformer bumblebee cake

I have due Thursday.

Its a shame I haven't even started it!

I tried to sketch it out last night but

there are

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

many many many

many many

details!

Aye dios mio!

Please pray for me!

I swear I should be grey now from all the stress of

Cakes!

**lol**

I'll be sure to post a pic in the Slice of Delight blog for all to see!

So if your not following that blog, do so now!