just a quick note

since i know i have been MIA.
I believe i said before that my job has restricted access to blogger.. totally sucks.
I am training new hires at work so no net book time.
Im also taking an online social break from everything it seems... twitter, fb, IM, texting, blogger...
sometimes, its necessary to remove ones self from the social scene realm and bring ones mental back into
the physical reality...
and I dearly miss you, my lovely blog, but when life becomes chaotic, one must regain the sanity before it leaves completely.

So im here, yet im not "here".

I've also been getting daily severe migraines every evening and they basically wipe me out. Not sure what has triggered these but im ready to call the docs and run some tests or something esp when the meds dont touch the pain. :(

Ive also found that my cousin has lost her baby and right now, im surrounded by lots of pregnant people. co workers, half of my cousins, friends, online friends... so its pretty  heart breaking when someone close has been told there is no heartbeat in a much anticipated blessing.

And what is up with this weather?!?! I dont know about everyone else in blogger land but we have rain every week, and cool sunny days on weekends.. today, thunder showers. Is mother nature bipolar? Did she forget to take her meds? Did someone cancel summer and I missed the news flash?!?! Seriously, Im ready for hot, summer days. please!

I am looking forward to this weekend tho, supposed to be nice, up to the 80's by mid next week, and I'm bbq'ing with family and friends at a lake far enough to be away from home but close enough to not have to pack like it. I will def blog about this weekend! :)

Wishing all my fellow bloggers well,

X's and O's

~Jasara

Rain, Rain go away

Come again in Winter, OK? Little Jasara wants the sun to stay, Rain, Rain , go away!

I think it worked! The sun crept through the many rain clouds this afternoon. I cant believe the crappy weather we are having here in Cali. While NY has shorts and tee weather, we are still in rain boots and umbrellas :(

But, the weather forecast for the rest of the week is rainless. Cloudy days and mid to high 60's. I can live with that for now. Even tho they predict rain next Monday and Tuesday... how much longer til may??????

Today has been a blah day. Seven people called out or were off today.

that's half the staff in my department.

Know what that means?

No side work at work.

I'm slacking too.

On so much.

Where is my mind!!!???!?!?!?

I STILL need to sketch this Lion of Zion cake out due Saturday.

Though my brain along with a great idea from a friend
has formulated a creation in my mind
i have still , yet, to sketch it.

I need to decide on school.

I have gotten email after

email after

email from the 3 schools

Ive visited, applied or sought interest in

and have no response for them.

I feel like i am in decision abyss

floating aimlessly amongst the thoughts

in my mind and the schools and alternate

options I've thought of

just watching them circle around the air

just as i....

am i crazy?

ahhhh, avoidance.

that's it.

focus.

1 task at a time.

and even though I don't want to think about this either

I must re look at my taxes

and see if i really owe

THAT much...

Yes, I'm ready for April to be over and done with.

I also failed to mention,

the fundraiser cake I was asked to do

canceled the day it was due.

everything was complete but the hand drawing I was going to put on it

and the script I was going to write on it..

here's a few pics of the semi finished cake...

Oh well, at least my co-workers and neighbors got to enjoy it! and the staff at PAMF! lol

.... on to the next

X's and O's